Ivan,

Honey- please stop fighting sleep when you're tired! It makes me crazy because you get overtired and then can't fall and stay asleep! Yesterday you were up for 9 hours, except for a 5 or 10 minute cat nap here and there, which made it hell to get you in bed. You were still tired when you woke up 3 hours later to eat, so when you fought sleep then as well..it ended up taking another 4 hours to get you to sleep. We can't keep doing this. almost 5 hours to get you to sleep originally plus another 4..that's 9 hours of rocking and singing and humming and tears! I still love you no matter what, but you're making me pull my hair out.

Love,
Your mommy

Well, my baby slept through the night last night....he's almost 6 weeks old now- time has flown!

I had planned on getting up to see my inlaws off this morning, because he usually gets up a couple times a night if I don't give him formula, but I fed him from the source around 830 or so, and he didn't start moving around until almost 415...and I think that was only because I got up and moved around some. Now, an hour later, he's curled up on my chest asleep again.

This week we're signing the lease on a new house, moving out of this one, and who knows what else. I need to get Ivan to see his peditrician- hopefully I can get an appointment for today or tomorrow. So much is going to be going on this week...I can't wait until everyone can be in on it!

Frustration level= MAX.

How come everything seems to snowball when it's going bad, and comes to a standstill when it's going good?

I'll be the first to admit that I didn't eat healthy at all when I was pregnant with Drago. Too many ICEES for one, and too much other crap..so I shouldn't be upset at the predicament that I've found myself in. None of my clothes fit..unless they're yoga pants. I've gone shopping for jeans 3 times now, and haven't found a pair. I first only went up one size, thinking that I couldn't've gotten huge..boy was I wrong. I went up a total of three sizes in the jeans I tried on yesterday...and they didn't fit. I should've stayed and tried on a different size or brand but I was so devastated that I just wanted to go home.

On top of not having any clothes to wear after the THIRD FREAKING TIME of shopping and becoming upset and irritated- I've also become upset and irritated with my insurance company. I have a super ingrown toenail that I really need to get fixed. I changed my doctor to some guy in Olympia because they were the first ones who didn't have a waiting list of 2+ weeks. I show up for my appointment- call them because I'm not sure where they are in the hospital, but wait! They're not in Olympia! They're in some podunk town 30 minutes away. My appointment at this point is 30 minutes away, and there's no way I'm going to make it. Thanks Tricare, once again, for giving me the wrong address of a doctor..after the appointment is set. Thanks a lot. It's alright though, because I'm sitting over here in so much pain- but it doesn't matter. I guess you really do get what you pay for- but you suck right now.

Can you tell that I had a crappy day? Oh, and I got to sleep for 45 minutes before Drago decided to start screaming. I'm flipping exhausted, my house is a disaster, and I'm also pissed at the world. Please don't ask me how I'm doing unless you're also planning to offer me lipo and a tummy tuck immediately after you ask how I am. I'm telling you now- I'm not good.

It's 3 in the morning

and I should be asleep, but I've got a sweet baby snuggled up on my chest.

I love him so much.

It's about that time!

Our lease at this awful house is up in under a month! I think it's been narrowed down to two different new places- both much closer to post, and much closer to civilization. I'll miss the neighbors out here, but with us living in town it means that I can make friends..since I have zero out here- besides the guys that Luke works with.

It's crazy to think that we've lived up here almost a year. In 10 days it'll be the one year anniversary...of our second wedding. Yes. Second time getting married. So many other things have happened in the past 12 months...like us having a baby. The sweetest, most perfect angel ever.

I can't keep my eyes open for anything, I need to take a nap and it's not even 9am! Too bad I can't. I still have to pack a different diaper bag, feed the baby, get breakfast for myself, and get ready to take Drago to yet another doc appointment. Looks like he probably has thrush, which means that I- his lovely mother- have it as well. His cord stump also fell off a little over a week ago and it still hasn't healed. Not a good sign. From what I've researched on it- it might mean that there's an infection, or that there's a little tube there that didn't close, which means that he'll need meds to get that taken care of. Treating the thrush is going to be a pain to start with, but something wrong with his belly too? I really hope that it isn't anything serious. He had enough drama coming into this world, it's ashame that it has to continue on for the lil guy!